Failure and France

So I've decided that there's no possible way that I'll be able to finish nanowrimo by the end of the month, or even this year. I'm incredibly mad at myself for not being more dedicated lately, though I know I have good excuses, some which I'll talk about here. I'm sorry to anyone who has been reading my progress, but I really can't continue with it right now.

I'm leaving for France on exchange for six weeks in one week from tomorrow. Regarding this, I'm terrified, excited, apprehensive, sad, and probably every other adjective existing - yet those are the main ones. As you can see only one of those is actually positive, but i would like to point out that excited for me is a huge emotion. Last week I had my exams, during which I still wrote quite a bit, but that's where I began to falter. I thought I would have time to finish my novel this week, but as it turns out, I've been unceasingly busy every single day and won't have any time at all until I leave. Sitting down and trying to write now has just been a nightmare, I suddenly had a huge headache, and looking at my word count of only 27,200 words, I knew I couldn't continue with the time frame I have. So there.

Basically, I've been in the city everyday this week, except Monday when I had a three hour English exam. Tuesday i had the most wonderful time with my beloved cousin Elisa in the city, yesterday I had Speech Night (A night that rewards hard working students and punishes the others with incredibly long speeches and singing which is such a high key it hurts to sing), I've been catching up with friends before I leave, exchanging euros, tomorrow I'll be participating in a coffee-making course which will hopefully look nice and pretty on my resume, then getting a hair cut (eep), this weekend I'm seeing more friends, then monday getting exams back and more friends, tuesday hopefully hopefully seeing Chris, then carols service rehersals wednesday, then seeing a pre-screening of twilight (which I would have missed because I leave before it actually comes out), then thursday is the last day of school (which is a half day), then going into the city to buy beedle the bard, and then Friday I am LEAVING.

That is a sum up of the past four days and of the next seven in front of me. Excluding the small details of course, but it's a lot. So I'm quite stressed at the moment, plus the whole leaving the country thing, and the person that I want to talk to most is far away and it's difficult to talk to them at the moment, because of certain circumstances. So I'm trying to deal, but it's hard.

And now I'm going to post this.

I'd like to clarify that I'm definitely going to be posting blogs while I'm in France, so if you all want to read about that, then you can =] hope you do. Sorry this is so long.

you blink. the day comes. you leave.